I didn't mean to say you're lazy. I just think that the same advice holds for general procrastination, which is itself, often related to fear of failure, but could be mistakenly interpreted as laziness.
It's sitting staring at a screen... all day, every day.
Like you, I know for a fact I'm not lazy. Not at all. I love working and dive into it enthusiastically. This is a consistent and effortless experience of mine, throughout my life. It's natural and rewarding to work hard.
What makes me seem lazy a lot of the time is that most jobs are just a few types of activity, focusing on just one or two major ends at a time, repeated over and fucking over for 40 hours week after week. Programming's fun, but it's not 40-hours-a-week-every-week-for-all-the-best-hours-of-5/7-days fun. Not one year after another after another. I fucking dread it and, sure, I slack off. Because it's literally an in-human thing to ask of people.
But, economics. So, we optimize. And here we are. Hooray.
I never claimed not to be lazy. :)
And if money were no object (i.e. if I were a student, or didn't have a family), I would at least take a stab at doing it myself.
But, alas: money is an object, my job is demanding and my family comes first. (Although I don't deny that I am partially making excuses for myself).
My whole life I have been called lazy. In filmmaking as an assistant this was a weakness, work harder not smarter and all that. I still feel insecure about it sometimes but over the past few years of transitioning into coding full time I have learned that this is my best trait. Life is short, you must demand to live your life how you want otherwise you will be convinced that working hard for someone else makes sense.
Trust me, laziness is a real thing; even when everything in the world points towards doing the work being the best thing for you, you just can't be bothered.
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